Often, but not often enough, someone will pen some thoughts that exactly mirror your own.
You suddenly become aware that you're not the only one with those gut-wrenching emotions. Warwick Rendell has written about his struggles with depression. He writes:
DEPRESSION, IN MY OWN WORDS...
"You can’t explain to someone who hasn’t been there what it’s like
to wake up, and the black curtain of storm clouds have suddenly dropped
around you. How do you face the people around you, silently mouthing to
each other “again?”. How can you explain that the objectively irrational
impulses seem subjectively rational? That you understand that you’re
not OK, but there’s nothing you can do to change it, while the world
goes on making demands as if you still felt “normal”. Your partner still wants you to be able to be there for her. The kids
still want to get hugs from you – and they still need to eat. The boss
still wants you to output widgets. The bank still wants you to make
payments on the credit cards you used to survive when things went
pear-shaped last time. The landlord still wants his rent."
